No one likes to talk about it but you know its there, you do that, you check your phone a thousand time just for that one stupid reply which somehow makes your day, we won't admit it but many of us do wait for that one little packet of joy we get when that one person we are obsessed with somehow manages to take out few seconds for us in a couple of days and damn we appreciate it rather we understand or make our self-understand the situation of that person and we make peace with it.
I am not talking about being desperate, no you are here looking out for just that one hard- pressed person you got yourself involved just too much, the one who has justification for every time you are ignored may be hurt but you my friend who leaves everything you are engaged into for the moment and try to make the most of those few seconds every time, needs to get out of the dilemma that something like this would go anywhere because the person isn't even counting it.
You think it's a phase maybe because the starting was beautiful, somewhat precious, something you never had something you will never get, something worth fighting, something that would last, but then why didn't that phone ever ring? Why it's always you making plans to see each other? Why it's you who is not sleepy? Why is it always you who is never too busy?
You pour your heart out, but it's of no use if the other person doesn't respond to it right because there are no consequences, they know you would be fine with whatever you are getting in return for your efforts, you would be fine with any answer when they are questioned, because you are just afraid to lose them, you are just not ready to let go.
The thing is, it might not happen with everyone, but it does to many, so what can we do about it, well surely we can't wait anymore if it's the something coming to us again and again, how many strokes can one take and here we are talking about our self-respect and pride. I agree you need to try hard enough but stop pushing it if it's meant to be, things would have fallen into place till now since only one of you is trying to make thing right they will never be as it's been decided by the other person so just pop the fantasy bubble yourself or sooner or later it's going to burst.
I understand you are stuck, I have been stuck too maybe I still am but one needs to get out of this havoc, one needs to indulge him/herself in something they enjoy and that would take their mind off from staring and waiting for that reply because being in this situation is more poisonous than any venom, one would not be able to handle his/her own responsibilities, fulfill own dreams, live own life.
You need to understand that you have an entity of your own to be involved in, to do something productive to find someone else someone better, you can always try but stop when it's making you question your dignity, take the hint and move on because efforts needs to be stopped not when they are not being appreciated but when they are not even being noticed.
Himanshu Narang
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| Doodle By Trisha Gupta |
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