Dear Future Me

Date: 15th June 2017

To be Opened: 15th June 2022

Dear Me,

I hope you are alive, I hope things work out for you, I hope you didn't lose your hair, I hope you finally got the reply from that girl or any girl, I hope you took her out to the fancy dinner you were saving money for,  I hope you are not married and probably you aren't a father too, I hope you are not ashamed of yourself anymore, I hope life is not that difficult anymore, I hope you are happy wherever you are whatever you are doing, I hope you remember me.

I do not know who you are, I might not be able to recognise you if somehow you manage to be here, but I am trying my best to give you a good life, I am trying to get over my fears, I am trying to give up smoking, trying to eat healthy, trying to find out what you would like to do in your entire life. I am working so hard for you and still, people call me selfish, I hope you got that in you too.

You and I go way back, we used to share same ideology, same sense of humour, same snobbish behaviour, though I am sure you have grown through experiences in last few years, and you might take me as a child you were ashamed of, but I know you miss being me in some way or the other, and I know you are way wiser than I ever was, you are way old than I ever was perhaps you would be more understanding and patient than I ever was so I am sure you are handling life better than me.

How are our folks? I hope you are taking good care of them, do they still have issues with you sleeping late and waking up late or have you stopped doing that? Do they still think you are skinny?Do they still fight over stupid things? How is the old man doing? Is he taking good care of his heart? Do you guys still watch the cricket match over some beers? Does mother still think those marks over your neck are self-infected, well buddy she always knew what you have been doing at home when they are not around, and I guess you know that? Does she still make you overeat every day in every meal possible? Does she still give you the best of the head massages? Well, I hope you still have all these joys in your life because I know they will always matter.

Well, let me ask you, are you happy? Like really happy deep down there? Have you overcome all your fears? Have you learned to accept failure?  Have you got the confidence? Have you learned to let go people? Do you still go to bed with the fear of never making it big in life? Do you still think you are not good enough? Do you still try too hard to people who are not worth it? Do you still have a problem in making friends? Well, I hope that you have positive answers to all my questions and, if not, it's okay I know you will eventually overcome all the shortcomings and find your path in life.

I hope you have achieved what you deserve, you had big dreams growing up, and I am working really hard to make some of them true. I hope you have dreamt some more and I know you would do your utmost to achieve it and leaving no stone unturned you will grab what you're destined to.

I can't wait to experience all the places you travelled, all the stories you lived, all the amazing people you met, all the delish cuisines you had, all the nights at the beach, all the mornings in the hills, all the drives you had and especially all the girls you have been with (please make me proud).

I hope now you are living in your dream city in a house that you have always visualized, waking up next to the perfect woman and the perfect dog, having the scrumptious breakfast and best of the dinners, if not, at least get the dog now.

Have you learned to bake? Do you play your guitar or it is still waiting to be strummed? Did you buy your own car or are you still driving your father's old one? Can you dance now without getting high? Have you stopped trying to sing? Is Elvis still your favorite singer? Do you still hit the gym?  Have you learned to cook anything except eggs? Do you still write? I hope you still write.

Lastly, I would like to say, I know things are difficult sometimes if at any point you feel down in life, you think no one believes in you, you feel you are good for nothing. I want you to know that no matter what, I will always believe in you, I have faith in you, I know you will find a reason, a reason to smile, a reason to live and make it big. You need to understand that you are strong enough, you are not alone, you are loved by so many people, your parents are proud of you, you might be wounded, you might fall, you might make mistakes it's okay you are person with faults and you are good enough to make up for it.

You are the hero of my life, you are my role model, no matter what all the fights in my life will be fought by you, all the roads will be traveled by you and no one can take your place, you are important to me and I look up to you, so I hope you remember me.

From,

You

                                                                                                Himanshu Narang