Daily Thoughts #05

The One Within

So ever been in a relationship? Great isn't it? At least initially when everything seems so amusing you get to know the other person, the thrill, another mystery to unravel, you have someone to share everything with, someone has your back, someone to talk to whenever you feel like, someone to hold you when you fall, but it's not easy to keep up a relationship, It's more like an exchange of common emotions, it's a two-way street and you have to walk up your path to make things work but only if you can.

Being involved in a relationship is for the few lucky ones and so is getting out of it safe and sound, but before committing to someone else, before believing in someone else, before loving someone else, before making those vows, ask yourself do you even believe in that person you see every day in the mirror? Do you appreciate that person? Are you doing enough for that person? Do you love that person enough?

To be honest, I am the most important person in my life and so are you, I suppose in your respective lives and stories, I am the lead in every movie which runs in my mind and I always get the pretty girl and kill the villain. I am not suggesting being selfish and unkind, I am talking about being self-loving because once you can love yourself unconditionally, you will realize that you are not perfect; you have flaws and start accepting it, maybe work to revamp yourself but until and unless you don't accept yourself then how can you accept someone else

'Happiness comes from within" is it? Do you enjoy your own company? Those thought wandering around in your mind do you embrace them? Can you spend time alone at a beach involved in yourself? Can you go for a trip all by yourself just to spend some time with the one who has been within you? Have you asked yourself lately "how are you? 

One cannot be alone, everyone craves for love and care, but it's a nasty world out there, got to be strong; you got to be content to take the hit again and again and not every time not everywhere you would be fortunate enough to have that special one in your life, it's bitter but it's true, so being involved in yourself, being happy with reasons of your own and loving the soul in there, is all the support you need to get through the time when reality strikes.

Once you love yourself, you discover the real person you are and what you really want from this life, the vague soul would see some light and would surely help you achieve more and achieve what matters rather than chasing what others want you to chase, you would be proud of the person you have become, appreciating the life you have, you grow more than you age.

Well I am no expert, I can't even guarantee a successful life on what I am saying, hardships would still be there, heartbreaks would still be there, the pain would still be there but believing in yourself, truly loving the person you are; you could be, I can surely guarantee a life worth surviving may be worth living too.

                                                                                             Himanshu Naranng

The Whimsical Mind Originals

Daily Thought #04

The Undaunted

She feared the winds 

She feared the storms 

But each time she realised she was mightier than their forms

She held her head low 

She held her spirits dead 

Until being bold was the only way ahead

Life is a sea characterized by troughs and crests 

A movie with multiple climaxes 

Hold your horses and move ahead it's definitely a view to be beheld...

-Garima Malik

Picture By Kriti Chawla

Daily Thoughts #03

The Wait

No one likes to talk about it  but you know its there, you do that, you check your phone a thousand time just for that one stupid reply which somehow makes your day, we won't admit it but many of us do wait for that one little packet of joy we get when that one person we are obsessed with somehow manages to take out few seconds for us in a couple of days and damn we appreciate it rather we understand or make our self-understand the situation of that person and we make peace with it.

I am not talking about being desperate, no you are here looking out for just that one hard- pressed person you got yourself involved just too much, the one who has justification for every time you are ignored may be hurt but you my friend who leaves everything you are engaged into for the moment and try to make the most of those few seconds every time, needs to get out of the dilemma that something like this would go anywhere because the person isn't even counting it.

You think it's a phase maybe because the starting was beautiful, somewhat precious, something you never had something you will never get, something worth fighting, something that would last, but then why didn't that phone ever ring? Why it's always you making plans to see each other? Why it's you who is not sleepy? Why is it always you who is never too busy?

You pour your heart out, but it's of no use if the other person doesn't respond to it right because there are no consequences, they know you would be fine with whatever you are getting in return for your efforts, you would be fine with any answer when they are questioned, because you are just afraid to lose them, you are just not ready to let go.

The thing is, it might not happen with everyone, but it does to many, so what can we do about it, well surely we can't wait anymore if it's the something coming to us again and again, how many strokes can one take and here we are talking about our self-respect and pride. I agree you need to try hard enough but stop pushing it if it's meant to be, things would have fallen into place till now since only one of you is trying to make thing right they will never be as it's been decided by the other person so just pop the fantasy bubble yourself or sooner or later it's going to burst.

I understand you are stuck, I have been stuck too maybe I still am but one needs to get out of this havoc, one needs to indulge him/herself in something they enjoy and that would take their mind off from staring and waiting for that reply because being in this situation is more poisonous than any venom, one would not be able to handle his/her own responsibilities, fulfill own dreams, live own life.

You need to understand that you have an entity of your own to be involved in, to do something productive to find someone else someone better, you can always try but stop when it's making you question your dignity, take the hint and move on because efforts needs to be stopped not when they are not being appreciated but when they are not even being noticed.

                                                                                            Himanshu Narang

Doodle By Trisha Gupta

Back To School

Remember the good old days? The fight to go to school every morning? Getting late every day and god those morning assemblies, those applauds given to certain kids my whole school life on stage and that false hope given by the principal "better luck next time", school ended, that time didn't really come, standing back there we were busy having fun.

Those last benches felt like home, sleeping in classes and getting scolded, didn't study the whole year still had no fear, realized how relentless we were when being sent out of the classroom felt more like a blessing than detention.

We were the one having lunch before time even getting caught but we pigheaded never changed, going to the washroom in every other half and we had a fear of only one teacher always taking an extra class.

Trying to impress the new girl in class even though I never had a chance, surely made a fool of myself a number of times but who cares that was an act of bravery that too without getting high, damn I was shy. 

Those five minutes of excitement, amusement and instant clattering all over the classroom between the change of teachers, no one one could hold getting up and take a walk around and the sudden lightening silence with the entrance of the other teacher and like always those two idiots being caught still wandering and rambling around.

Twelve years passed couldn't get the lab coats and wear our identity cards, why such unnecessary demands? Still, remember being sent to the principal's office for not doing my homework for 6 months straight, I am sorry I was running a little late.

They give us something they call school almanac in the starting of every year, for fake medical leaves and registering our complaints in those last pages, things it taught me was to sign my father's name and convince him that he signed it himself once I get caught.

The entire week we used to wait for that one hour of peace and pleasure called "P.T", we all were in the fear of that teacher again always standing out of the classroom just before this godly hour, every week we had this fight for our rights and at times when we successfully reach the playground and the fat coach sends us back on her request, made us all cry.

Then comes the time of the year when there was school annual function, the day of the event was just awaited but every moment, every attempt to make it right, the hard work, the stage,  no matter what your part was; the lead or just a tree in my case, it will always be counted because it was you being part of something bigger than yourself, your parents would still be excited to come and see you standing there, your siblings would ruthlessly mock you though. The event went successfully every year and execution was appreciated and forgotten but the backstage memories are still cherished.

Parents-teacher meeting the terror they created may be the only reason why scoring was more important than understanding, hardly appreciated here but again who cares? Yes, we

faced the upshot of our act, promised everyone we would change but again someone opened the tiffin before the break.

Years passed there was no one to take another class, all the fears are left in that room, the last bench gossip was not yet completed, the morning fight was over, the canteen debt was forgiven, finding a way to get in again but I guess this time we are just too late.

                                                                                           Himanshu Narang

Daily Thought #02

The whimsical Mind

To Be On Your Own

Being eighteen and having no boundaries happens to be very rare in our country, being answerable to no one but yourself, cooking your own food not only gives you a good career option but teaches you to survive on anything, washing your own clothes well that's not a pretty picture, living on your own is no cake walk but It's a wonderful teacher.

Still remember being the fat introvert kid with no clue how to handle himself going to the college, now at least have done good work on the weight loss. Three years have passed and not only I have aged physically but with the mindset, I have adapted myself into, I have surely evolved as a person.

These years taught me the value of money, adjusting in the slender allowance, making the most of it, saving it for the needs because our wants die when having a pizza once a blue moon becomes a luxury.

Doing odd part time jobs to make it up to the month you surely gain more than just your pocket money, you get to know whether you have it within what it takes to live and not just exist.

You are responsible for everything related to you, paying rent, making your own food, doing the dishes, washing all those clothes on the chair even cleaning the washroom and many other small responsibilities one face every day, makes you the perfect maid your mother was looking for, well a couple of career options have been discussed whether you graduate or don't, you are surely placed.

Living rather surviving in a city where you don't even share the common language could be tedious, well it's worse when it's not even a city but a district and that too in South India, making people understand what you need is a task, but somehow you grow into it but to be honest it's still no fun.

The fun part come's with the freedom you get, the spontaneous trips you have, the moment you realise you don't have to lie to mom and dad for coming home late, house parties can be done anytime, you can walk out if you like, can walk in with the one you want, don't have to be afraid if someone catches you smoking, see survival has just been made easy.

One do feel alone, at times you get no one but yourself, one do feel like giving up every day, one gets tired seeking help, so did I but no one actually cares as much about your problems as much as you do, finding the solution on your own, feeding yourself, having faith and the wit within, you understand how important was it to suffer every day to be someone who is wiser and smarter than yesterday.

The point is living on your own, starting from that very age when you just get to have the essence of being an adult, having all those responsibilities and dealing with it makes you the architecture of your own life, a person who understand the perception of others, who patiently waits for his turn or find a way to be their first, a person who starts creating rather than complaining, after these years I might be the product a company needs but surely a product life does.

                                                                                                               Himanshu Narang

    

The Whimsical Mind originals

The Meet

By Trisha Gupta

Another day, met her but couldn't say,

again and again, the same mistake,

couldn't act but stare,

I hope she knows I care.

Sitting next to her, hoping to hold what's mine,

kiss her all the time.

Trying to get close all I could, 

maybe I should, 

listening to her I was stuck there,

feeling lucky to be in her sphere.

Dropping her home was all I could do,

held her hand like a fool.

As she stepped out I knew,

something within me is gone too.

                                                                                                        -Himanshu Narang

Daily Thought #01

The whimsical mind

Just Some Time

18th June 2017

As I woke up, walked up to his room, wished him "happy father's day papa" he kissed my forehead and thanked me. I asked him how he wants to spend his day? He just smiled and said nothing special, just stay home today. His answer made me realize that it took me an entire year to ask my dad a simple question, it took me an entire year to get a day for my dad and what the old man wants is just some time with me at home.

Three years I have been living alone in some other city for the so-called formal education, so we don't talk much we don't get time even when I am home I am either out or busy which made me realize I have distanced my own father from myself, the man who did everything for me, killed his own desires for my stupid demands and he still loves me, he might not say it much but I know he believes in me and he has no complaints, no expectation just a wish, a wish to see me succeed, see me happy and well also see me married and have kids "not happening dad".

As his fiftieth birthday past, he has always been concerned whether he has done enough or not? He has been worried, what if something happens to him, what will happen to his wife and kids? He is scared whether his son is competent to take all the responsibilities? Whether he has been a good father or not? Whether his daughter see the man who she wants to be with, in him or not? I can't answer all the questions but however it might help, I know he has done enough, we can never be ready to take it if something happens to him and he has been a great father.

So father, we might fight at times, mother and I might scold you for your food habits well you have a big heart, not a strong one though. We might disagree on many things, but you are the one who taught me how to ride a bicycle or how to drive a car. You are the one I enjoy cricket most with, you are the one I had my first drink with, you are the one who realises my needs before I could realise it myself, you are the one to get me all the amazing  junk food I ever had, it did make me fat but it's okay everything worked out fine. You are the one I got my charm and charisma from, you are the one who always leads me, I can't thank you enough for anything, you selfless man but I will try my level best to make it up to you I have been looking up to you my entire life, I will make sure you look up to me some day.

Lastly, I need you to know how much you mean to me, and how much I need you, how much I love you, I am not going to upload a picture of us on some social media for the day, I don't need to do that to prove my love for you to everyone but you, I am not going to wait for another father's day to spend time with you, to show my concern for you. You always asked me what I want to do with my life, let me tell you whatever I will make out of my life it will definitely make you proud.

                                                                                           
                                                                                       Himanshu Narang

Memories

The whimsical Mind

One of the fondest memories of mine is the one where all my family extended came together for a family photograph. All the giggles.... and the people rushing left to right to get the adjustments right. And all hustle and bustle was for that one very moment and hear the camera click. And viola! It was done. Remembering these moments does make one nostalgic for more reasons than one.

Feels great does it not? But what happens if these memories become your greatest fear. They haunt you every night. And follow up in your dreams so as to ensure that they don't leave you. Ever.

That is where the problem lies with a person who has a good memory. They remember.
Memories are often bearers of good times but when they bring about the one's you want to forget..Then you are in serious trouble.

It is seldom said that having a good memory skill is an asset, you will always have an edge over the others. But they never told me that it might make me miserable someday when I try to forget and end up remembering more about the same.Remembering is easy. It's forgetting that takes a toll on your head.

You'll try hard. You'll start by removing all the pictures you might have had. You'll avoid places where you believe you might have to meet them. You'll avoid eye contacts just believing in the idea that they might catch you looking at them...and you might see their eyes ... those eyes which carried care and love now have hate and disgust.. because after all... it's the eyes which give away a lot. More than you know. Believe me.

You'll curse your mind and make it so severely stressed that it will feel it might explode at a point.

How come forgetting the things I learned are so easy to forget and people not so much, is something you will ask yourself.

You try and employ yourself in all kinds of tasks just to get away from the idea of the other person in total.

After all, If you don't take defensive measures your mind does. It'll make you a lot colder. It'll make your heart build huge walls around its perimeter so as to not let another butter flutter in your belly. That's how memories often work.

People say leaving behind good memories of oneself will help in recognizing whether the person was good or bad.

But are memories either good or bad? if a person is gone will remember him bring back the joyous moments spent with him or lead us back to gloom realizing that the person isn't among us anymore?
                                                                                               
                                                                                                                              -Arijit Sarkar

       

Life Happens

By Trisha Gupta

Open up when you're hurt. Open up in pain. Endure it. Live it. Accept it. Absorb in it. But most importantly learn from it. Learn that you're only human, you're bound to fall. You're bound to have emotions, feel emotions because that's what life's about. But whilst you're at it, remember to be easy on yourself because you're at your most vulnerable stage. 

No, you're not irreparable, that's a big fat lie you keep telling yourself when you feel its the end of the world but the fact is, everybody in life deals with things you might have never thought of, and matter-of-factly here comes the real deal, it's when inspite of repeated pull-downs by the world, you learn to stand up against all odds, ready to experience another breakthrough. I swear it's like a drug, to watch people grow. So what if blunders happen, they happen because life happens.

-Rishika Datta

The Morning

A Whimsical Mind originals

To the morning of my best night, somewhere in my mind,
I knew this one was very kind,
couldn't sleep the whole night,
couldn't let go something so fine.

It was different it was nice,
something I could have never find,
it's been a long time,
how come it still makes me smile.

She was brave she was scarred,
the most beautiful thing with a broken heart.
all I had to do was to hold her tight,
maybe she was right it was just that night.

I know I am late,
but I will always wait.
No wonder I am still trying,
maybe she is worth crying.

                                                                                       Himanshu Narang

Silent Or Silenced

Brought into a new house, made it a home. Introduce to a new set of people, made them a family. Face all the hardships, learned living away from her parents and made every possible sacrifice. For what? To be treated like a slave? To be disrespected? To be broken so badly? That when few pieces of her are left unbroken, she starts feeling happy?

She didn't ask him to marry her, She didn't ask him to bring her to his home, she didn't once tell him to title her as his "WIFE". Did she want all this? Yes. Did she force him? No. All she ever expected from this man was love and happiness, not a penny more. And all she got? Lies, false commitments, and mere parasites eating upon her in the name of the family. 

This man, who in the first place should not even be called a man, cheated on her, his wife. Not once, not twice but thrice, years after years creating a never ending vicious cycle of lies and cheating. What did she do? Waited, waited patiently, hoping a day would come when her man would come out of this havoc and come back into her arms. 

She could have left, she could have fought but she didn't. Why? Because this man and his cannibalistic family filled fear in her soul. A fear so dark and deep that she feared speaking out her thoughts, giving her opinions, fighting for herself. She was a strong and independent woman, a woman who was once who was no less than art. How? She was a woman whose eyes lit up with joy even at the smallest of things. A woman who was fiery and calming at the same time, a woman who smelled of poetry and literature, a woman whose embrace felt like a trip to heaven, a woman whose smile and laugh brought a sense of fulfillment, and true happiness. Now tell me, what else would you say of her, if not art? 

But those people mutilated who she was and made her life a hell she has no escape from, only till the day she decides to burn it down along with her culprits, who scarred her,

Lastly, do a favor and don't ever ask why she remained silent all these years, she was not silent by choice, she was silenced.

                                                                                                          

 -Khushi Maheshwary

A Whimsical mind originals

Dear Future Me

Date: 15th June 2017

To be Opened: 15th June 2022

Dear Me,

I hope you are alive, I hope things work out for you, I hope you didn't lose your hair, I hope you finally got the reply from that girl or any girl, I hope you took her out to the fancy dinner you were saving money for,  I hope you are not married and probably you aren't a father too, I hope you are not ashamed of yourself anymore, I hope life is not that difficult anymore, I hope you are happy wherever you are whatever you are doing, I hope you remember me.

I do not know who you are, I might not be able to recognise you if somehow you manage to be here, but I am trying my best to give you a good life, I am trying to get over my fears, I am trying to give up smoking, trying to eat healthy, trying to find out what you would like to do in your entire life. I am working so hard for you and still, people call me selfish, I hope you got that in you too.

You and I go way back, we used to share same ideology, same sense of humour, same snobbish behaviour, though I am sure you have grown through experiences in last few years, and you might take me as a child you were ashamed of, but I know you miss being me in some way or the other, and I know you are way wiser than I ever was, you are way old than I ever was perhaps you would be more understanding and patient than I ever was so I am sure you are handling life better than me.

How are our folks? I hope you are taking good care of them, do they still have issues with you sleeping late and waking up late or have you stopped doing that? Do they still think you are skinny?Do they still fight over stupid things? How is the old man doing? Is he taking good care of his heart? Do you guys still watch the cricket match over some beers? Does mother still think those marks over your neck are self-infected, well buddy she always knew what you have been doing at home when they are not around, and I guess you know that? Does she still make you overeat every day in every meal possible? Does she still give you the best of the head massages? Well, I hope you still have all these joys in your life because I know they will always matter.

Well, let me ask you, are you happy? Like really happy deep down there? Have you overcome all your fears? Have you learned to accept failure?  Have you got the confidence? Have you learned to let go people? Do you still go to bed with the fear of never making it big in life? Do you still think you are not good enough? Do you still try too hard to people who are not worth it? Do you still have a problem in making friends? Well, I hope that you have positive answers to all my questions and, if not, it's okay I know you will eventually overcome all the shortcomings and find your path in life.

I hope you have achieved what you deserve, you had big dreams growing up, and I am working really hard to make some of them true. I hope you have dreamt some more and I know you would do your utmost to achieve it and leaving no stone unturned you will grab what you're destined to.

I can't wait to experience all the places you travelled, all the stories you lived, all the amazing people you met, all the delish cuisines you had, all the nights at the beach, all the mornings in the hills, all the drives you had and especially all the girls you have been with (please make me proud).

I hope now you are living in your dream city in a house that you have always visualized, waking up next to the perfect woman and the perfect dog, having the scrumptious breakfast and best of the dinners, if not, at least get the dog now.

Have you learned to bake? Do you play your guitar or it is still waiting to be strummed? Did you buy your own car or are you still driving your father's old one? Can you dance now without getting high? Have you stopped trying to sing? Is Elvis still your favorite singer? Do you still hit the gym?  Have you learned to cook anything except eggs? Do you still write? I hope you still write.

Lastly, I would like to say, I know things are difficult sometimes if at any point you feel down in life, you think no one believes in you, you feel you are good for nothing. I want you to know that no matter what, I will always believe in you, I have faith in you, I know you will find a reason, a reason to smile, a reason to live and make it big. You need to understand that you are strong enough, you are not alone, you are loved by so many people, your parents are proud of you, you might be wounded, you might fall, you might make mistakes it's okay you are person with faults and you are good enough to make up for it.

You are the hero of my life, you are my role model, no matter what all the fights in my life will be fought by you, all the roads will be traveled by you and no one can take your place, you are important to me and I look up to you, so I hope you remember me.

From,

You

                                                                                                Himanshu Narang

Being Beautiful

She was beautiful, but not like those girls in the magazines. She was beautiful for the way she thought. She was beautiful for that sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful for her ability to make other people smile even when she was sad. No, she wasn't beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful deep down her soul.

-Kriti chawla

Being An Atheist

An atheist a disbeliever, someone who believes no deities exist, No GOD exists, well I don't agree with this definition, I have been an atheist before I knew this word. I couldn't, I just couldn't have faith in the idea of worshipping sculptures, because I wasn't able to give my belief a name, a figure, a face. Whenever I talk to my family about it, to be honest, they call me wrong and they think one day I will believe, well maybe you never know. Whenever I talk to other people about it they think I am an offender of the society, I am like really? Well, I don't blame any of them that's what they have been taught in their entire life, having faith in God, then choose a particular God, then have faith in that God then, do all kind of things to please that God and then wait for the ultimate fruit of your devotion.

Well being a Hindu I was introduced to millions of Gods, and all of them created and controlled the whole universe and resided in India, so  I was like how is that possible, It was like a Hollywood movie with Alien invasion, I guess my view regarding the "human-made" God was created because my questions were considered irrelevant and were never answered, I don't know if they even have any answers.

My problem is not with God, that guy has done enough for us and he is powerful enough to take care of himself, what my issue is how people, how society get away with things in name of God, girls being slaughtered, cities being destroyed, people being divided, so what good is it? terror is being created in name of different-different human created Gods, If they happened to be real they would have either stopped it else the worst has happened, even they lost hope and left the planet, surely chilling somewhere with those aliens in peace. Not only terror, but in our country this is a well-established business, no advertisement needed, God fearing people from all over the nation will come and invest in cash and goods in the hope that their work will be done, or surely something good would happen to them. Well these innocent greedy people are just trying, who are being fooled by the so-called servants of the God, well I cannot blame them I am greedy too , I am just not innocent, I cannot have blind faith, I cannot invest without any guaranteed return, a fixed deposit works well for me.

The thing is I tried donating money in name of God but I felt what good did it do? They say you will feel rejoice and enriched once you do that, here I am like feeling broke.What is God going to do with all the cash and let's say God might need some cash, you never know economic breakdowns are way common nowadays, but how is the transaction being taken place between God and the so called servant of God? Again another irrelevant question by the urban poor again not going to be answered.

All these facts, unanswered questions, made me what I am, I am an atheist and I am happy being one, the way I see it, there is some supernatural power controlling the universe and I have faith in it, I respect it but I can't picture it or give it a name, but I know enough about it, to not to go in search of it, it's taking care of  all of us and itself, all I can do is be the best of the human being, have my soul enriched by good deeds, help the needy not the greedy, believe in love, family and friendship and live and lead the life given to me to best of my potential .

I know people would judge me, my own family does but it's okay I have made peace with it, they say, serve the almighty I say almighty doesn't need serving all it need is believing, believe in it, it's out there looking for you, give your love and devotion in the life he has given you, be the person you think he would be proud of. I agree to the fact that believing in God gives us hope to survive, life is not easy for anyone, each and everyone is busy fighting their own way out, but what I am saying is you have to win the fight to have your own way out.

                                                                                                Himanshu Narang

Think About It.

Why?

Why? Why am I writing this blog? Why did I make this? I don't know for sure right now? We all have been there where we have to take a career decision after class 12th well I guess that didn't really work for me so this is just an attempt to express myself, just an attempt to see what it takes to start something and take it to some point  where it's good enough to help someone in any way, or inspire someone or entertain someone, or even make someone laugh, I am still confused what's my passion, what's my interest and i guess there are people like me searching for their passion, so this blog is not going to be specific to any such field. This is not going to limit itself to certain set of minds, this blog will be about everything it can be about there will be something for everyone so that someone or at least I am able to inspire myself and find what makes me passionate enough to work my life into it, there are going to be stories, personal experiences, education, travel blogging, music, art, dance, food reviews, memes, everything which is worth sharing and worth writing, best of the efforts will be given to bring it to everyone's notice. People say it's easy to just sit and write about things well it takes a lot more than that it takes the guts to try, it takes the courage to handle the question what if? What will people say? Well, I have been scared of these questions all my life which really didn't help me much, people still say something or the other, now if they have to say give them a good enough reason, make them think how could he/she do this. Your parents will always say work hard enough to get a good job, well they are not wrong they care too much about you to see you fall, they want to protect you from the mistakes they made, but they need to understand they can't always protect you from everything, so just listen to them, make them understand your point of view, take their wisdom but have your own experiences.

No one wants to take a risk, well true everyone wants to have a safe and a secure life, getting a 9-5 job, well my opinion was same, it might still get the same if I fail to make this big but at least I won't have the regret of not trying, at least I would have something interesting to discuss with that beautiful girl over the bar after years and not just tax return and excel sheets , what I am saying is everyone has a choice of course not in India , here you have to fight with your parents for having the audacity to have a choice especially when you have wasted their lifetime saving in your education , but eventually they will understand at the end of the day they love you, and they will support you so just make sure that you give your 100 percent when you get that chance and I am sure you will definitely at least impress that beautiful girl at the bar.

So here is the point don't be afraid to take a chance, be afraid of never taking one? You got to live once doing a job is the easiest way out of it if you enjoy it so all you need to do is find that job, finding it won't be easy, people might not believe in you but you got to believe in yourself and if you see even the slightest of the light behind the door that you think has been closed for you, your whole life? Just take an axe and knock it down and be in the brightest phase of your life.

So imagine what all you can do and what will you do which makes everything worthwhile and makes you stop looking, something you connect to, something which connects to you, something you can do all day without checking your phone, something which is just never enough,something which might not be your goal but doing it makes you feel that you have achieved something, something that makes you happy but also fills your pocket, just that and all the answers would be with you, you will surely get the answer to "WHY?! " .

                                                                                               Himanshu Narang