The Walk

It happens right? When you meet someone for the first time and you feel a strange connect, a spark which makes you wonder where was this person until now? How could this person understand my problems better than best of my peers, weird, isn't it? A complete no one, someone you met at the airport while waiting for your flight, the one you see every day while you jog in the morning, could be the person over the bar or maybe an old school mate who was never too close. Well, I am not sure about everyone and it might not happen all the time but it does happen or maybe it's just me.

It's been  a few months to this encounter, I was in some other city, ran into someone I knew to exist, an old "someone" I was not really associated with, knew each other just by face and name, a mere acquaintance, standing in the same compartment, had several eye contacts  before either of us could initiate a conversation, we exchanged  the usual formal greetings before moving on to acting overwhelmed seeing each other and same old questions as to  "What are you doing in life?" and  "Where are you headed?" Neither of us was heading to the right path in life, simply lost somewhere unaware of our destination as of now, coincidently we had to get off at the same station.

My hotel was near her place, well not really that near but I perceived it as an opportunity to extend the conversation and maybe catching up things. We started discussing with the misty rather end of hope future plans. Astonishingly we shared parallel opinions about our mutual friends or people we thought we knew even life in general and once we were even done conferring the shortcomings of the country and how we are not going to do anything about it, being a fan of relationship talks, my fellow female homo-sapient suddenly asked me if I were seeing anyone, which led us to a conversation of two lone people with not a very good history in handling the things when they start to complicate.

Walking with her, talking to her, getting to know each other, She was rather surprised to know the real me. I was glad to have changed her perception of me from a spoilt brat to a considerate companion. Soon we realized how similar things have been for us, the anguish, the love, the perseverance to maintain the status quo, leading to the end of something beautiful or something which was never meant to be or maybe it was.
Things which end relationships or maybe it was just our case like not giving space, one being over protective, one asking too much, one revolving his/her life around the other, we both had similar issues  with our past but then with some recent experience  and the urge to find someone better, someone with a mindset to understand why I couldn't be there, why is it important to let go things, and why I fail to express my heart, made me realize being with someone for long somehow makes you used to the way they treat you, you compare the every next person with what you have experienced over the time, the special one sets a benchmark, a minimum amount of time, care, love even the control you expect from the significant other, failing to which your anxious mind refuse to stay, you just don't feel right, the rebound hurts, even more, the space you have been fighting for when given without being asked for doesn't seem to be working for you now, you cease to see the perspective of someone else other than the person you were with. You see the very things which dimmed away your love for one becomes a need to hold on to someone else.

So we continued to walk, understanding each other's perspective and I was kind of glad that I found someone who concedes similar views on something and experienced somewhat the similar set of  ups and downs, maybe formed an unusual connect, I would rather christen it as a beginning of a beautiful bond; making us comfortable in sharing things buried kind off deep within, without the fear of being judged, not indicating being enticed, well can't really say about her, it's hard to overlook  the charm I possess but what I am talking about is the feeling of being in a sheltered and cared zone characterized by a freedom of expression where your viewpoint is well taken care of rather interpreted in the most constructive and positive manner.

I walked past my hotel, couldn't let go of the conversation this soon, it feels great to indulge into a real conversation once in a while with someone new, someone you might not meet ever but still have the faith and conviction in the relation raised over the course of less than an hour. Amusing how human heart functions, discovered trust is not always built over time but sometimes it's the mind which connects on its own, linking two souls of two hearts usually at unexpected moments, bringing someone closer way more than you ever expected or even wanted.

Finally, we reached, bid each other goodbye. Though our ways parted we were somehow still connected. I wanted to walk more or just stay maybe the time passed just too soon, I was glad to have boarded that train and made that eye contact, I knew we might not see each other again but she is definitely not just an old "someone" anymore.

                                                                                                           Himanshu Narang